Now I’m all alone again and feeling blue
Irene Cara’s song & lyrics come to me often when I feel like this. Missing the old me. The me before Star died. The me that was full of life. The me that knew how to love. The me that trusted. The me before Star died!
Now I’m all alone again and feeling blue
I close my eyes so I can be with you
Oh baby be strong for me
Baby belong to me
Help me through
Help me need you
I pack up some things coz I’m like a travelling roadshow! I’ve barely lived here for 6 months and I’m moving again. Can’t even seem to paint. Can’t focus. Thoughts of my uni assignments are high on my agenda. I need to prioritise but can’t seem to organise my thoughts.
Just wanna drink! Want the safety of my mothers embrace so it’s to my bed I go. Swaddling myself in the comforters embrace.
I channel surf until something catches my eye. A doco on Erwin Blumenfeld. I had never heard of this photographer but the images I see before me cause excitement! I devour this new found info – he’s a breath of fresh air breathing new life into my soul. His eye, his technique, his rebellious attitude to rules! The way he captures an image, a woman, many women. His covers of Vogue – OMG! I’ve found a kindred that is years before his time – and mine! This is the beauty I try to create with my brush! His life a roller coaster too but then these are the crazy lives of creatives.
HOME
I have found another to add to my ever growing list of inspirationals!
I then stumble across some short films made in Australia by female directors and I am enthralled again. Inspired by such talented women and the stories they tell for they tell stories with a different eye. An eye like mine. Female, feminist- maybe – but I don’t like labels either! Just good different!
So I have produced more than anticipated today amidst these anxious, crazy times. In the embrace of my comforter, under the eye of the stars, I was guided to these wonders. Food for my soul = content for my creativity = passion for my paintings & another blog down for my schooling!
Creation! 